OBITUARY

by Eulie

Here today, gone tomorrow
An unexpected departure.
Did you think she would live forever? 
What was her name again?
No matter . .  she was.

Oblivious to the power she possessed,
Resilient and determined to succeed,
Challenged failures like a mighty warrior,
Armed and exposed to culture,
Fluent to articulate in dilative languages.
Perserverance molded her character.
Instilled values and principles 
Seeped out of her pores
Like a sweet pleasant aroma to your nostrils.

She walked in grace, 
Stepped on pride,
Brushed against hatred,
Embraced unmerited favors,
Willed and focused on the impossible,
Embellished granted mercy
Cherished freedom.

She was. . . Eulie

THE LOVE OF GOD

by Eulie

Why do you love me so?

A sinner

A criminal

A wolf clothed in sheep's garment.

I question your motives

Yet, still. . . 

The stench of my past haunts me.

Tears erupt uncontrollably at the thought of my victim.

A rush of anxiety filters my nerves.

Paranoia lurks and awaits an invitation

To be forgiven.

In my reflection

The mirror reveals stale judgment.

Thus shattered, it will remain.

The memory of my past is like a sharp-edged blade.

It pricks my emotions.

My soul is still torn.

Why do you love me so?

He who rules the world

Mocks my journey toward my Savior, Jesus.

Distraction is posted in every direction

Engulfed with lazy sleep.

Communion with you is  interrupted.

The oasis of my future is clouded with fear, 

Yet, still. . . you love me so.

Discouraged by the present reality,

I doubt your presence. 

Your rainbow reminds me of your promises.

Your hedge of protection shields me with a purpose.

I grieve.

You comfort me.

I claim insanity.

You bestow a renewed mind and self-control.

I attempted suicide.

Through Jesus, you granted me eternal life.

I curse my birth.

You bless my life abundantly.

I'm found in your bosom

Sheltered with grace and mercy.

God, why do you love me so?

Yet still. . .